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I have always wanted to have a site where I can just write. No agenda \u2013 no worries about what people are going to think \u2013 and not meant to drive traffic. Just a place to write. For some reason tonight, through a world of emotion and the underlying theme of “life is suffering”, I write.\u00a0<\/p>\r\n
I bought this domain to be a domain about me. And as I started to develop myself, I though this was going to be my voice. My voice of health, fitness, personal development, growth, everything I love in my life<\/a>. And with a background in health and fitness, and a passion in personal development, I was going to help others level up in their life because I was going to get these INSANE results in all areas of my life. I was going to share my knowledge with the world. I was going to be the guy that everyone wants to be and teach people to be the same. I was ready to go.<\/p>\r\n Then 2020 happen. And I stayed fat.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n Then 2021 rolled in, and I was going to get it again. But I stayed fat.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n Then 2022 rolled in – this is it. This is my year. Watch out world – here comes the 6 pack!<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n Yeah – I don’t think so. Same ol sh*t.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n So finally – 2023 rolled around and I was finally fed up with life. Like all aspects of it.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n I was living<\/a> a still <\/em>life.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n Year after year – I was STILL.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n STILL overweight.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n STILL out of shape.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n STILL making the same money.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n STILL at the same level of relationship with my wife.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n STILL the same dad.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n STILL on the same level of my work.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n STILL frustrated. STILL dreaming. STILL wishing. STILL hoping there is a better life for me.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n And I was so fed up with it. Like to the point I couldn’t sleep. I can’t tell you exactly what exactly flipped in my mind this time – there wasn’t a straw to break the camels back – except for maybe me actually taking this shit seriously for the first time in my life.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n This was all early December. I was ready to go come 1\/1. Dedicated. Passionate.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n Then here comes 2023 – and you know what happened? I actually did it.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n I got in the gym. I actually started pushing heavy weights for the first time in nearly a decade. I subscribed to Carbon app to help with my calorie management. I quit drinking alcohol. I shopped for myself. I was in control on by diet. I was hitting cardio 5x days a week. Diet was on point. Gym was on point. Mindset was on point. I was actually doing it.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n Pounds were flying off. I started at 204 and 4 weeks into I was 195. But I was starting to build muscle. I no longer had a double chin. Work was paying off so much people were starting to notice. I was at my son’s baseball tryouts and I had a guy I know who is a beast of a human being ask me if I am losing weight and that I am starting to fill out a shirt. It was a huge compliment from him.<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n Confidence<\/a> was through roof. I planned a date with my wife to see Niko Moon at a small venue here in San Diego. I went out and bought a new outfit – skinny jeans (I have never been a skinny jean guy), plain tee shirt and a bomber jacket. The wife noticed. I actually even bought cologne to wear – like who am I?<\/p>\r\n \r\n\r\n<\/p>\r\n